It's another brand new DAY!

So it's another beautiful day! Yipee! ...life keeps rolling on!! Ive realized i never want to forget what matters most, I never wanna hafta answer no! Im trusting my instincts and my intuition, and always following my heart, from here on out! Ive been pretty good at it so far... And though some may not like it, or may not approve of me and how Ive choosen to live my life, im no longer letting that bother me. Ive learned, if im not happy.. to make myself happy- to not be content with being unhappy! ...I love living in Camp Douglas with John. He is amazing. We live above a bar in downtown. It's like a condo/apartment thingy... townhouse? idk... it's pretty sweet. Funny thing is, when i first got here, it was colder than a witch's tit, and now... its decent.. the snow has melted a ton!! and im starting to see grass!! Something i didnt think i would see atleast until end of April... but i am glad to see it! lol. I love living in a small town, and away from chaos! Im glad to be away from Mebane for a while! Away from the usual. Ive always loved traveling, but did i ever think of Wisconsin, nope! but... its a change of scenery.. and i needed some change! Things...as most of you already know.. werent so fabulous in NC, especially not with me and my family. To be honest, Ive never really felt much acceptance from them since i left for college, ive never felt more than a mere disappointment to them, mainly because they want me to be a straight A student, which im not. they want me to only do school.. no dating.. no seriousness around, just school.. and really im too lovable! lol. They've always judge my school work based on who i was dating, not based on ME.. and the fact that sometimes Im not fabulous at school. but ya know what.. Ive figured out what ive wanted to do with my life... and im gonna do it.. one day! may not be now,or in six months.. but it will happen. Right now.. im getting my life stable. Im getting the things I need... and then ill be going back to school. And possibly even doing cosmotolegy. along with my dream of being a wonderful photographer! lol. So.. dont think ive lost sight of my dreams, i havent. ...Is there a day that goes by that i dont think of my family? Nope. I love them dearly, whether or not we have a good relationship or not. Ive got to work on me, before i can work on my relationship with them, because do i think i am capable of having a decent, relationship with them right now...? no. and that sucks.. but its the truth. I guess it's true sometimes the truth does hurt! lol. anyways. Im too optimistic to worry with it all anymore. Surrounding myself with on the positives in life!!! Speaking of which... this weekend!! Is Valentines Day! Yay! As for my plans, tonight we are going with some of our new friends Tiffany & Brian (they are married) To go see Friday the 13th! and boy.. am i scared! hah.. ill letcha know how it goes later! Then 2mar its up early to head to Madison, because its Kat Von D's book signing!! Hopefully ill come back with pictures! and a new autographed book! & then its hopefully a nice meal out somewhere on the town. It's also John's lil girlies Birthday! and im excited for her.. she is gonna be turning 4, incase you didnt know! We bought her tinkerbell books and stuff because she loves books... which is a good thing! We're gonna get to watch her on webcam 2night open them! We miss her a bunch! ....Anyways, i found a cellular, and a plan.. that i like.. & Im hoping to get really soon!! so i might have a number my friends can finally reach me at! :) I also did research on how to help my hair grow longer.. and its by being healthier! So more reason to get toned, and healthy! lol... alrighty... well im done blabbing for 2night.. time to go get ready....